Ok - so the fast only lasted 4 days for me. I lost 12lbs and could easily have kept going accept for the fact that I had an allergic reaction to Senna which was in the herbal tea that I was drinking during the Master Cleanse fast that I was doing. The fast was very difficult but definitely worth it if you can keep from being allergic to the one thing you get to have while fasting. So now I am 15lbs lighter and I am as itchy as hell. I hate this feeling. I would rather be fat as hell than itchy as hell. It is supposedly going away little by little but I am not feeling any better really. Wish me luck!! I am excited about having lost 15lbs so far. I have been going to the gym on a daily basis doing 30 minutes on the bike. In the beginning or middle of February I plan to start lifting weights as well which I expect will increase the fat loss that I have happening. I am looking forward to that. I plan to win the contest at my work and use the money to take a trip at the end of April.

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Now What?

Ok. So I've taken the step of making a "fat ass" blog. I've done all sorts of journaling. I've taken the dive into the deep dark trenches of myself to figure out why what where blah blah blah the beginning of my fat. I've admitted that I look better in my mind than I do in a mirror. I've admitted that I'm addicted to fast food. I am a part of the fast food nation.
Now What?!? Where do I go from here? What in the hell is my purpose beyond a bit of blogging and journaling? I have to set some goals. What the hell are they? Ok here goes.
I know I want to be healthier. Not necessarily as it relates to fat. I want to have a good immune system. I don't want to get sick so often. I don't want to have allergies so bad every year, I don't want to get colds and flu's like I have been lately and in the last few years. What else?
I want to fit into all my clothes instead of just some of them. I have a huge stack of jeans that I don't fit. If I were to guess I'd say I'm about 10lbs out of them. I'm not sure of that though.
I have all sorts of other goals but they're long term so I won't mention them. What's the point really of focusing on a bunch of crap that is so far off that I'll likely lose site of it all and end the entire process. Let's just say that in the end of all this I hope to be a cute white girl with a pretty smile and dread locks that is peaceful and happy and so hot that even people who don't like cute little peaceful hippies with dreadlocks think I'm cute and want to talk to me. I want to have the image that I have of myself be reflected in the image of myself I see in the mirror. I want to just be better that's all - BETTER.

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